we all change.

we all change -- and i do, too.
well. i hope i do.

since it's hard for me to update, i see no point in maintaining that blogskin. and i think this suits me just fine. i feel like a blank piece of paper right now. i have so much to offer, yet i have so much to learn. the simplest form expresses the most. and in so many ways this blogskin represents me right now.

been thinking alot, been quieting myself alot. so many things are debatable. so many things are contro. but i quote this new-found friend "是又怎样？说了有分别吗？" he said, as the third person to me, "if something needs to be screwed up, let it be."

al's a candle and bbear the matchstick. im like a lighter.. need some push to light up n provide energy -- and when the wind comes i need a hand to shield me. im trying to stand alone, i am. but im about to collapse.

i try to offer a smile to everyone. but ive stopped smiling at myself in the mirror every morning. tell me why.

the right thing at the right time.

so many things to say
but don't know where to start.
like al n bbear would say
its just like my work.
so many things to do
dunno where to start.

so bro james posed the perfect solution!

all about ME!

7 random facts about me:

1) i cant stand not being the leader most of the times.
2) i need to be heard.
3) i am a survivor.
4) i am driven -- and with stamina.
5) i m black jack of all trades.
6) i shine when grouped with incompetent people.
7) i dont know a lot but i learn fast.

7 Favourite music at the moment:

1) cuppycake
2) uncle fucker
3) teochew
4) ah lam's char kway teow
5) bad boy
6) miracle
7) the tide is high

7 Things which i like most:

1) good food
2) rose tea
3) cuddling
4) intellectual conversations
5) analysing situations
6) coming up with ideas
7) earning my own keep.

7 things i say most

1) huh really?
2) mm.
3) okay
4) hmm?
5) pleaseeeeeeee?
6) thanks!
7) how ahhh.

7 lucky ppl to do this

same thing applies. WHO LOVES ME STILL BETTER DO!
i'll be watching u.

maybe sticking to wad n who u are familiar with is the best way out.
and maybe everyone else's right.

i hate this situation that im in now and im not used to working with people like that. it sucks. i dont like the way things go and its nauseating almost. oh god. i need to pray.

frustrating shit. i cannot stand not understandin my situation cos i start to alienate in such situations.

finally i m staring at my keyboard and have no idea how to put anything into words. one step taken, one decision made, now.