flooble!

ohhoho. i stole leona's flooblebox. but boxed it up cos i hate it taking the colors of my text. too pink. anyway since i got a tagboard up, start foobling! =)) please.

some stay, some go, some return and some were never there.

i guess i got my fair share of that. and i probably know who the ones who'll stay are. but its a cannonball on my ego. the tiny pieces..i dont know how long it'll take for me to find them back or build new ones.

but thanks, for having been patronising and superficial. cos i love lookin like a fool.

how could i forget your famous lines?

"the setup program is not compatible with this version of windows."

ive always been a bit backward in the arena of handphones. i carried my passed-down n3210 thru-out my jc life and upon graduation i reuqested for a n6510 when my bro asked. i believe in liking a phone..i didnt like any coloured polyphonic ones then. and i carried my first first-hand mobile thru-out my nus life. i wasnt ashamed of it! =)). it wasnt a 6110 mind you. it had BLUE backlight. haha. anyway upon graduation this time, i got a motorola v3x. my dream. =)

so now im only backward because. my phone cant be coordinated with my computer due to the said incompatibility. right. and i honestly thought there was something wrong with me.. and i just had to ask na.

so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
hey

so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
u think it's OCD?

so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
the way i cant stop flippin open my phone n browsin thru my pictures

Nana says:
huh?

Nana says:
what is?

so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
n end up takin more?

Nana says:
HAHAHHAHA

Nana says:
that's just

Nana says:
you

Nana says:
hahahahha

:$. its almost embarrassing how wearing shorts n a singlet to convo is me as much as using up two batteries a day taking photos of myself on my phone is. =
well, it's me.

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p/s check out na's blog for her sleeping position! =))

revelation of the day.
some friends are so hard to keep.

anyway here goes me!
i really do sleep curled up eh. =)

Find your own pose!

jo's shorts n the shopaholic.

so robin was right..and seems like not only he noticed. i do wear shorts everywhere huh. almost as if i dont own any bottom past my knees. oh no. so um. i bought my convo gown but didnt try in front of the mirror at home or even iron it. i grabbed singlets n shorts n a pair of heels n off to the grand thing i went with my family. i mean. i honestly didnt know the rest of the world would turn up in white long sleeved stuff would i.

let me explain:

JO :: i just blew fifty bucks at cold storage. call me auntie. . :: says:
i just thot..

JO :: i just blew fifty bucks at cold storage. call me auntie. . :: says:
wear as little as possible wont go wrong

JO :: i just blew fifty bucks at cold storage. call me auntie. . :: says:
cos it'll all be hidden no?

Princess Karen says:
dats where u thought wrong i gues

Princess Karen says:
shaha

Princess Karen says:
kinda i guess

Princess Karen says:
except when it flaps

Princess Karen says:
n it flaps when u run

Princess Karen says:
n u ran

Princess Karen says:
so it flapped

so that was the situation. san made me feel better by saying this "its ok jo, u wear shorts everywhere u go..so it's just you." and i did feel better. i crawled across the stage n bowed demurely, hoping my flaps didnt open.

so anyway. i was how proud of myself today! the whole time before my turn, (except during e's turn i screamed my lungs out n the pple in front turned to stare at me) i was observing how the pple looked at the camera n when the camera people took the photos. and i caught the timing just now. i turned once for the handshake. n another for the scroll thing. except. i forgot to thank the old pro-chancellor. but i caught both timings! some pple just stood and waited for the flashes, but they already went. so i was awful glad.

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i blew 50 bucks at cold storage. on d24 durians and green seedless grapes (how yum la) and some stuff essential for the best dinner in a long time. yum.

i love life.

even though i blew 50 bucks. and hmm. got asked about wad i wore beneath my convo gown a few more times than comfortable. aiya but someone said i hid it well! so ya.

photos up soon. and i loveeeeee phototaking, family and friends.

so complete.

i cant believe my stupidity.

i cant believe it. i was..that stupid. but i like that everything's clear to me now. i like how i cope.

hahaa wad a joke ive been. thanks.

gross.

i woke up after hearing the irritating alarm..beeped for thirty four minutes. im that bad leh. =\.

random, but nothing beats home-made french toast and milk tea for breakfast. yum. n thousand island sauce is orgasmic. =) just. i dont like to toss salad la. i threw the cheese that i sliced, the tomatoes that i diced, the cold roast chicken shreds, lettuce, those huge hotdogs sliced..n i cant remb wad. you will toss my salad for me -- i will find you.

ive always felt that my perfect match should be someone who enjoys certain similar stuff as me, those major stuff, but complements me in aspects i dislike. like i'll hang the clothes up to dry, my match would do the laundry (i even hate dumping stuff in the machine), i'll um. sit n watch tv while my match does all the housework. OH. i'll do the dishes. i dont mind that.

anyway. i had this very thing i wanted to blog about. which i forgot yesterday, and recalled last night before i slept. n trusted myself to remb. which of cos i didnt. damn.

|-) yawn.

yikes.

went for this intro-ed kid's first lesson. supposed to teach english, but the same old question popped up, "'cher, u teach math as well?" "yeap. if uve got any question u could just ask me." "ive got two. my math tutor cant solve them." he procceeded to search for some book he called the "challenging problems". the first question was weird. u couldnt solve it from many different angles.. u could only try seeing it from one. the second was easy. after class, the sms came to hire me as a math tutor. poor guy..i dont mean to take ur job. sorry.

anyway it made me think. how many things in life can only be seen from that one angle? its pretty amazing to me. especially when it comes to math. maybe i just havent discovered that angle.

so anyway. one fact ive been trying to uncover for the past few months came unveiled over a phone conversation minutes ago. this huge like i have on this someone..hes taken. yikes. thanks darling for letting me in on it. well at least he's not gay for once. no hopes jo, no hopes. i really wonder why the guys i am able to talk to fall only into three categories: taken, chee-hong or gay. are all conversation-worthy guys like that? dont blame me for being single.

da da dum.

i have found out the cause n therefore the cure for my restlessness recently. i missed two episodes of er mo. and when i switched on the tv just now..gawd. i started smiling non-stop. i guess sometimes vicarious living is a joy.

and another issue that had been bothering for the past few days has been solved too! lack of honesty makes me an umcomfortable freak. heh so it's all cool. =)

and the arse is back. time for the once-a-year meetin!

fuck cold turkey.

everything is good in moderation. never take too much. the chill that runs down both arms n the tendency to reach that object. i hope i havent been trying to convince myself but really saying what i mean. oh gracious. fuck cold turkey.

and the girl was so sad.

i came across this profile.. and it spoke of sadness. how one part of her has been torn away and ripped apart n missing. i know that feeling. somehow i think everyone does. that emptiness that we feel that only this particular object that has left can fill. n i remember that when i was in that period of time, when i actually couldnt wake up having forgotten all things sad cos i couldnt even sleep, it felt like i'll never ever get better. when the eyes get all puffy twenty four hours a day from the oceans of tears i cry and the nights spent staring into emptiness n holding on to the phone in case an sms comes in. the sms that will make everything better. i know it. you know it. we know it all too well.

but hey. we do get over those times dont we? the lemon twist flavoured memories may still be vivid to some, but these will stop haunting. our hearts are big. our worlds are huge and life is full of so much more. i just hope everyone will remember the joy that we've felt before n let the warmth engulf the coldness of the hurt when we get drawn into these dark periods..n smile.

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on a lighter note, im here to market...

TAMPAX PEARLS.

wahlau a gem of a find like i told ayda. DAMN GOOD LA. so if anyone wants the original tampax tampons i can give u la. im a convert. ive got quite alot of the old ones left though. but im not about to stick another dry wad of cotton in me. not after i discovered TAMPAX PEARLS. anyway. sometimes i believe tampons help to relief abit of the crazy pain we all feel during periods. so..just a wild thought. maybe sex with a well-hung guy will help. heh.

overshare? dont read la!

no la im kidding. i'll try to curb myself next time.

happy happy. hop arounddd.

happy happy.

sometime in the middle of the night i felt a hand push me head off the pillow and then another hand joined in to push me to my side of the bed. if i belong to the bed at all. i dont know how i rolled til i slept horizontally on both pillows last night but i couldnt stop laughing at my stupidity. first simple joy.

the sun didnt hurt my eyes when i woke this morning..it was warm and welcoming. after the past few either too bright or too gloomy days. perfectt. second simple joy.

when u start ur day with two simple joys, how can u be upset? i beamed at myself in the mirror just like most mornings n i got happier. haha.

n it was shopppinnnn. aie! therapy. bliss. but karen didnt spend a single cent in mango. damn.

so dont worry. im happy again! wait. did u worry, or did u know? that id be happy again. haha. im so predictable i cant stand myself. and i talk so much to myself i cant stand that either.

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hop arounddd.

reflections these few days gave new meaning to my favourite tune during hip-hopera and many other occasions. ive been hoppin' around alot.

first hop around. ive been hoppin around and still circling the same spot.

second hop around. ive been hoppin around hoping to find what i already have. i thought i missed out on being taken care of. i thought i missed out on being treated like a girl. i thought i missed out on so much other girls have. i still think so, but at the same time i have so much more. all the love and all the happy friends with all the love. =) i never knew enough even though i thought i did. its time i know it. i have more than enough already. =)

but hey. its summer. no harm hoppin' around a bit eh? though i know i'll miss whatever new stuff i get. but missing's a good thing. u can't miss what u never had, aint it?

and that was a goal i hear.

i love every tiny detail of life.

and i love me. =)