updates

i must be getting old.
before my time.
i'm not even 21!! rahhh.

mirando's not even over,
and im feeling the strain from all the standing already.
where's the jo who stood for 10hours on end, EVERYDAY?
but i think i was tired then, too.
maybe it was the company that made it better.
my backaches have not been helping either.

yesterday was my first short shift for mirando,
and how glad i was.
time literally flew by,
with eu n xy coming by,
playing 'merry-go-round' in front of me n the public,
running n jumping about like little happy children,
watching abit of the tapdance together,
and running off for free sushi.
and of cos trey and fren stopping by,
chatting my time away!
i was surprised to see the 430pm shift pple come by!

ive been tired out alot too..
with the morbid dreams ive been getting.
just dreamt of this stranger dying.
not really a stranger.
she was supposedly a st nicks junior.
but even in the dream she didnt look familiar
and i even stared at her heavily made-up face in the coffin
to try and recognise her.
and the tonnes of photographs during the wake.
and in the dream..
i could feel myself dying too.
and i wonder if the time i die,
will be the time i really know what people are thinking.
i can be oversensitive,
and super insensitive, at the same time.
and somehow,
i think i suck at understanding people.
i don't know what they really think
unless they tell me,
which i guess they seldom do.
except probably for my gofs
who sit down with me sometimes to just talk.
it seems like no other friends are ever gonna do that with me.
im just drained.
not upset or anything.
just...clueless.
to how u feel.

guess who i saw?

hi good evening,
(points to the stage)
this is actually part of the singapore arts festival,
have u heard about Mirando Al Cielo already?
This group from Spain is performing Mirando
from 6.30pm to 9.30pm every evening from today til 4june,
except 1june.
Admission is free, so if you happen to be around the area,
do drop by!
and yes, the stage you are lookin at is a very interesting one.
im sure u have realised, it's transparent!
so the audience actually sits below the stage
and view the dancers perform, from a totally different perspective.
yes, very interesting concept isn't it?
it's not everyday you get to watch dances from this angle.
#are you interested in the arts?
really? good.
this performance is actually one of the many outreach programmes
that the National Arts Council has organised during the ArtsFest.
(opens out the long timetable in the brochure)
this is a timetable of the other events during the festival,
all over Singapore,
and most of these are free,
so you can go for as many of them as you would like to!
oh, you would like a copy?
no problem.#
oh no, thank You.
see you around!

--- yeap i've said it sooooo many times
that it's become a script.
and yes it's free people,
im NOT trying to sell you anything.

the response i get from people:

1. OH! now thaaaat's interesting. *smiles and listens intently
then after my relating of the event
thank you soooo much for telling me about it,
i'll definitely find time for it!

2. oh, i'm leaving tonight. *gives a sad expression

3. nono, just lookin, dowan dowan.

4. i dont understand..nono. *walks away*
after which i switch to my mandarin mode
and yada yada and they stop and adopt either response 1 or 2.

are u able to identify with any of the above responses?
the ## part of my script is only for receptive audiences,
which is most of the people i speak with.

oh guess who i saw during promotion of the event?

1. alvin
haha yes alvin, i see you again!
saw him while distributing flyers at somerset
and he was so amazed to see me again.
i am too, alvin!

2. hyan
urrrrgh.
during which i urged petrina to hurry on
and i think hyan didnt see me.
first dylan, then hyan. very goood.
hope i wont see who im expecting to see nest.

3. wilson
i almost couldnt recognise him!!
and surprised he could recognis me.
haha bullshitter you.
say will come back later at 630pm
then never!
u very good.

4. li jia and jia qi
omgggg. been such a long time!!
five years.
and we took a pic!
jiaqi's schooling in canada,
but back for summer hols til sept.
you girls still look superb. =]

finally gymed with firs again!
after we caught the very first show open to public!
heh. nice feeling the PMs asking,
"eh no work today? have fun ah!",
having joel say
"enjoy the show!" with a friendly pat on the shoulder,
keyi n gang giving surprised looks.
i feel so welcomed! haha.
gym was ok,
didnt feel as shiok,
but wooo hooo.
felt the ache set in last night.
more, more!

posters.

have u seen the recent bus ad?
on the tiger footballer thing?
i haven't been taking buses for a long time
so when i was on the 159 back home just now,
wad i saw when i looked at the bus stop ad disturbed me.

this black silhouette was leaning against a sports car
and two mini-skirted slim attractive ladies
looked like they just tried to get to know him.
how wonderful.
a million dollars and a sports car wins u girls.
of cos.
girls are materialistic and nothing else,
aren't they?

dylan

guess who i saw today?
not a good thing.
reminded me of my past stupidity.
yes dylan.
ugh.
but im glad she grew fatter.
like one and a half times she was!
ok she might be blogging the same thing abt me right now,
but who cares.
she was known for her big butt.
and right now it's elephant butt.

wadever.
u will lose all ur money one day i tell u.
im feelin evil n grumpy.
good thing i saw her when i was rushing to mica.
if not i wont know wad to do.
urgh u..bastard.

walking

walking

met up with audrey n yz last friday
and aud n i walked from chinatown to dhoby ghaut.
been a long time since i last walked,
and it felt good.
the peace that u breathe in!
the simplicity of the air..
i feel all simple again,
in that complicated structure of human relationships n buildings.

catching up with yz was even better.
been such a long time since i had my last rose tea.
the last time was with bro james, meizhi n company
and musicdreamer cafe.
anyway, the tea was good!
rose tea's always good.
so i finally managed to catch up on yz's life!
and oh i verbally diarrheo-ed on the way to dhoby ghaut.
poor audrey.
i didnt know i had so much cooped up in me.
i was shocked at myself.

shared cab home,
and audrey made uncle tell ghost stories lah.
im glad i have lane to talk to me while alone in the kitchen.

the next day i walked from somerset after work,
to plaza singapura,
to bras basah.
and the printers were all closed.
but i was surprised i walked the distance again..
felt so good =].

these few days have been a rush.
i cant even remb much,
except for sleeping earlier everynight,
and waking up for work.
and learning new stuff everyday at work!
i still have sooo much to learn.

The End of the World

The End Of The World
by Skeeter Davis
album: Essential (1996)

Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
'Cause you don't love me anymore..

Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know its the end of the world?
It ended when i lost your love..

I wake up in the morning and i wonder,
Why everything's the same as it was..
i can't understand, no- i can't understand,
How life goes on the way it does..

Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said 'good bye'.

st nicks!

went back st nicks today..
damn fun lah.
i'll blog abt it soon enough,
when priscilla n grace send their pics over!
we tried family-dancing in the sunken forum can.
so funny.
i suddenly miss st nicks.

yawn

i must be having insomnia
cos i cant seem to remember things.
hahaa im sorry im still tickled by it.
the confusion between insomnia and amnesia
during a sand-trickling-in-the-hour-glass timed taboo game!

anyways.
i lost my monday to my memory.
lemme try to recall..

oh i had very bad stomachache.
reminded me of the last time i fell that sick,
almost grabbed the knife n killed myself
when i realised there was a clinic downstairs.
what happened was--
i had slight diarrheoa n i stupidly took laxatives.
to flush all the unclean stuff outta my system lah
i thot once n for all wad.
and yes i was right in the cleansing part.
i started throwing up like noone's business.
imagine how gross lah.
alternating between shitting n throwing up.
but anyway i was disgusted too,
amidst the pain i felt.
my stomach was like tearing apart
and the pain was soooooooooo excruciating
i really rather i was dead.
so it went on for like half an hour
before i decided to part with that money
n go downstairs.
the problem was,
i couldnt stop visiting the toilet.
so i made sure i shat enough to last me to the clinic.
n brought a plastic bag along.
despite my countless visits to the toilet
and constant vomitting into the plastic bag,
the nurse refused to believe it was real,
and made me wait after the numerous patients
who looked like they had flu.
after awhile,
i think my white face (yes darling my face can be white too)
scared the hell outta her and she asked me to go in next.
after i related my super koh lian episode to the doc,
he said the most cruel thing that could have been said.
he made me make a cruel decision for myself--
"i can't give u two injections ...
(insert chemical reactions n whatnot here)
...so choose whether u want to stop the diarrheoa or the vomitting."
me, in my most pathetic voice,
"i dun mind dying..
can just stop BOTH?!"
after some time,
i realised arguing would just prolong my pain,
so i made a decision.

at this point,
i urge u to make a decision.
if u were feeling as horrible as me,
which would u choose to stop?

no, please decide.
try it!

yes, i'm serious abt it.
give u three counts...

1..

2..

3.

my decision was,
"stop the diarrheoa please."
i mean, at least i could carry a plastic bag around.
i didnt wan to be stuck to the toilet bowl!
so yea,
i got kept at the clinic
while the next few patients came in.
i was in this tiny room behind the room
where the doc examined the patients.
i was offered a new plastic bag,
and i kept throwing up.
and i heard all the patients ask abt me.
so being the attention-seeker,
i made sure my vomitting sounds were audible.

anyway,
the stomachache was THAT bad yesterday.
but i bought ru yi you a few weeks ago,
thinking it'll come in useful someday.
and yes it did.
i poured 1/8 of the bottle of oil on my tummy.
over different periods, of course.
i know my tummy big lah,
but not THAT big can.
so yea..
after many hours,
it felt better!
no need spend money on doc.
$1.90 for ru yi you can liao!
so worth it hor.

*sponsored by
ur head.

but i was better lah. =]

Jo's Quiz

Jo's Quiz!

did fir's one..
and im sure i could have done better!!!
rahh.
nvm, it's YOUR turn to do mine!
EVERYONE who reads this blog post
MUST do the quiz!

come come let me show u the link
this!

tag on my board after u finish the quiz!

updates

:: wednesday ::
badminton with rozy, lane, meiyi,
HEALTHY LIFESTYLE! i like.
had a damn good time,
but damn ugly shots of me.
ok the shots were good,
just i didnt look fantastic.
the barrier meiyi looked so much better! unfair.

then it was settlers where i saw my babes.
and u can refer to the prev entry
for my love proclamation for them!

::thursday::
settlers with another group of babes.
(see why i said i was the luckiest girl on earth?)
meiyi lane n firs!!!
we played stupid games
n train thinking game
and, courtesy of lane, taBBo.
firs partnered lane,
meiyi n i partnered!
n guess who won?
of cos meiyi n i did!
the camaraderie was great.
for example,

meiyi : amber. people crossing.
me : traffic lights!

me : woOOOOOOoooooooooaaAAAAaah. up and down!
meiyi : roller coaster!

could u have guessed it if u were us?
meiyi we make greattt partners!
but of cos, we had our downs too.
lemme show u:

meiyi : the famous guy with the same birthday as firs?
me : hitler!

(all burst into laughter)
apparently, i fergot our firsy had a poetic birthdate.
and shakespeare was his name, oh.

then guess where we hit?
It Takes Two at Victoria Theatre!
a last minute decision,
and thanks to dearest ayda for the free entry!
it was a good show..
would have missed it if it werent free.
selena tan n hossan leong!
everytime i hear the
"i can see a rainbow..." song i grin to myself.

then it was homey home.

oh, i had alot of kind reminders to add this:
i saw thomas ong!!
in tshirt n jeans,
and a moustache.
so rugged, i like.

::friday::
woke up at an amazing hour
and shocked myself. 8plus am!
den i was sms-ing..n fell asleep.
then it was sms-ing n dozing off
til jeza's came in
followed by fir's call.
and grocery shopping!
lunch was simple..
tofu n egg, steamed,
and char siew.
no time for the corn n carrot soup i was so craving for!
dennnn. lunch was ready at 155
n i was supposed to meet fir n jeza (n von)
at 230!!
but guess wad..
i just love meeting ts pple.
i'll tell u why.

me : eh, i'll be late! lunch is just ready.
jz : np! we're all late!
(after a while)
fir : eh sorry, i'll be late!

hahaa.
dun u love it?

movied at cineleisure, Summer Storm
we walked in halfway into the show..
and i was excitedly lookin hearing out
for german words that i could understand!
ok i understood:
1. "tut mir leid"
2. "ich", "du"
and some others. haha
such a loser!! =
lemme tell you wad happened during the show aiight.

at the point where tobi was gonna tell ande(right?)
that he didnt like girls, but guys instead..

tobi : i'm in love.
ande : with who? do i know her? sandra? i can't believe it.
(yes she was so happily having this little monologue on her own)
tobi : it's not a guy.
firs : it's a cat.

(all burst into laughter)

firs : (trying to sound repentant, but so not) i so spoilt the moment hor? heehee

at the point where the guy that tobi liked was making out with sandra...

firs : (as sandra) eh darling u're so looong.
firs : (as the guy) eh, me? no wad.
firs : (as sandra) then wad's this?
(sandra pulls out a snake n both screams)

hahahaa. and jeza said she could so hear me laughing away.
our Mr Firdaus StandUpComedy Sukor.
*applause*


and hey bitch.
yes u, the one i called bitch over the phone!
u're such a bitch, really!
but let's meet up soon all the same =]
update ok!

programmers i love you

"We think material goods make us happy, but the more we have - the more we want. When all we really need is a hug."

nice quote eh.
well im a happy girl.
the most fortunate girl in the whole universe!
feel so loved all the time..
get sweets n little presents
n smses from frens i seldom keep in touch with.
i love all of you.

and trey got me rave on 2005! n tonghua! =]
they've been continuously playing in my player
for the past two days that ive gotten them.
loveee.

met up with programmers
excluding yvonne..
i'm so sorry for myself i missed out so much time with u guys!
u don't know how much i love you guys!
honest.
even though we don't see one another often,
you guys are one bunch who's CONSTANTLY on my mind.
ask pple like valane,
she knows once i start talkin abt u guys,
i just can't stop.
the meetings, the fun, the arguments.
all of them.
i miss all of them.
each one of you programmers means something special to me.
everyone something different, and all special.
*hugs*

:: programmers i love you! ::
nana -
you're the wonderful source of support,
of advice n clear-headedness
from all the mess in my life.
you know my drama serials by heart
and is always there no matter how drama things get.
the last minute phone calls for english before the exam,
the hours-long chats over the phone,
the squeezing on the mattress with zhen in the room,
the sharing of our lives,
the things u always do for me no matter what,
the way u make me feel good abt myself no matter wad others say,
the way u accept me for just who i am,
and the way u r just u.
you don't know how much i need you!!

yvonne -
my fellow camper from my first swaps camp
to my fellow programmer for the next foc!
the close periods we had,
the distant one,
the christmas party, the cny one,
the chionging...
ur sweet and simple nature
reminds me of the simple side of life,
reminds me that life is beautiful.
im so gonna miss u when u go over!

lin yen -
the ever giving one.
always missing your sleep for others!
theres nothing u're unable to do,
and theres almost nothing u're unwilling to do!
the selflessness i see in u
prompts me to do away with my selfishness.
u're the warm side to life
and i see hope in everything when i think of u!

zhisheng -
my fellow lj1101 masters student.
have we graduated?
the lame jokes we shared,
the recharging of coldness at cold storages,
the disputes,
the learning,
you're always this big source of knowledge.
u might not know,
but u have taught me that everything can be learned.
the day u told me u were looking for remedies of flu online,
i realised everything can be learnt,
and there's really no reason to stop learning.
and you've been such a brother to me!

javen -
tom! haha. i really hate to call u that.
but who cares. =]
we've been thru the ups n downs.
when we were lunch partners
despite everyone's teasing,
when we were sharing parts of our lives,
when i just screamed at u and gave u attitude,
and when u accepted them all,
and stayed my fren.
you don't know how much it means to me,
to be able to pass thru that point in time
when i drift apart
and finally come back as sure friends.
the times we didnt see each other during lectures
the times we irritate each other to the core.
your willingness to accept n change w/o grudges
has taught me humility
that i so extremely lack.
that friends are selfless
and friendship is strong,
no matter how often we see each other.

i love you!!

this is the programmers entry,
hahaha again after the absolut camp.
i just love you.
and you guys just must know.
i love love love you!!

pics up!

pics for lane's 21st up already!
under lane's 21st
check out our babes! =]

i feel like the most fortunate girl on earth. =]
i'll blog abt it again!

updates

exams overrr!

hit phuture with some of the wackys on wed,
and of cos it was newsroom bar before that.
pics up under wcks at newsroom,
but there're no pics of char
cos she joined us at phuture straight.

thursday was dinner,
a teeny bit of arcade with the ts hotties,
and ktv!
den our Mr. Nice Guy alan sent all of us home!
with the exception of me n meiyi..
and off to meiyi's house we went,
after a long day out
to select fotos for laney's album!
at some point of time i zonked out
and we were sent home.

friday saw me rushing for tuition
and the out-of-sorts day.
was beat at the end of the day
but that wasn't all.
got pricked by needles,
broke a needle,
and cut the cloth.

saturday morning ran into mummy's bedroom
to catch her before she left
to replace the sewing machine for me.
got a bit of nagging n scolding
finished the product over a few hours
and pricked my fingers some more.
worst thing was i tried at least five times
and the thread couldnt go thru.
when it finally did
i sewed the pillow case too small.
wonderful.
but i didnt have time to make a brand new one..
n off i went to sketch n write pages for lane's album.

HAD THE MOST HORRIBLE CAB RIDE OF MY LIFE.
the uncle was horrible.
his skills were abt the same as his attitude.
i cabbed down to gleneagles to meet georene the darling
who lent me her vjc uniform,
then to wisma taxi stand to pick up the poor babes
who'd been waiting for me for an hour.
den off to chestervale we wenttt.
and upon reaching i unglamourously threw up in an enalavelope
and smudged my mascara.
wonderful.

BUT THE PARTY WAS GREATTTTTTTTTTTTT!
made up for everything.
fir was so hot (in both sense of the word)!
check the pics soon.
i'll be waiting for MEIYI.
*stress stress*
and meiyi was sooooo gorgeous in the sexy top
and her vixeny makeup!
the simple n sweet girl transformed into a sexy vixen.
and u should have seen VALMAR.
gawd i can't wait for the pictures.
of course,
we have VALANE the virgo queenie
with the nice hair!!
n the irritating mascara
which emphasized her already emphasized eyes some more.
rahhh.

the food was great,
the company was awesome,
the night was fun!

lane's got an easy-to-talk-to mum
who makes super uber nice hei zoh.
*drool*

and i feel all the wrong feelings at the wrong times!
i fell asleep in the toilet at tuition.
nodded off when i came out.
den when tuition ended i was stoning on the lrt.
but once i reached home,
excuse me, sleep, WHERE R U.

that's about all the updates!
check out the pics ba.

was out with WaCKy yest,
when we received some news.
yet another reminder that life is vulnerable.

i just wanna let you friends know
that i love you.

i'm ok, so don't worry.

tag-replies

tag-replies!

kris - yesss let's please.

ange - haha that isn't even a story! the story's under theblackcomedy! dated some time back already darling. u're making it obvious u havent been reading my blog! hahaa. n yes man. *miss. haha if she's not fated to use it, keep it for urself! it was for u anws! zoukkk =]

fir - haha i wish i could boil like love potions to enchant all the lecturers to give me the grades!!

ayda - haha. aunty jordy'll be limited to within tagboards n a few mouths.

jeza - phuture! after our paper!

why do i feel like a chiongster?
haha just by replying the tags.

richard gere n julia roberts.
the love of my lifee.
both. *swoons*