trying to make life easier

this logs the happy and painful process of learning about myself

31.5.06

oh help.

argh i got myself into this mess.
yan. ur fault!
kris. helppp.

whined and pined almost the whole day today,
had tuition, and went out!
met kris finally since a few weeks ago
and andru! and her cousin n fren.
then these three teenagers joined us
and i just felt young all over again.
kris n i were the oldest there
and it feels strange not to be the youngest.

was whining double when i checked my hp
and recalled the schedule i lined up for myself tmr.
no time to do wad i wanna do.
but He saved me from that sorrow.
He sent her to me. =)


29.5.06

the lack of words.

i feel like shakespeare in Shakespeare in Love. i have no muse at all..and maybe i just need a summer romance.

i decided to pack my room - which has bags and luggages strewn all over the floor, bed, table and chair. and i started with my wardrobe! so i can close the doors of my wardrobe properly now. plus it's all clean, neat and user-friendly. in the process of packing, i recovered a few pieces of missing clothes and pretty tops and skirts that i forgot i owned. but i still havent found the top i suspect my mom threw away cos it was too lowcut.

but i still have no space for the hanging chair i bought from ikea at a steal last year. and no nice cabinet to stuff my bags and the bedsheets and blankets and pillows i bought for hallstay. but at least i did something.

for one and a half weeks, i went back to the unhealthy life of a coward - i skipped gym. i put on 2kg, feel obese, and yet i had the cheek to stuff myself with homemade macaroni and cheese. what in my hen pen happened to the jogging routines i promised myself? and it was not until i saw this fridae profile of a girl made pretty purely by her self-discipline to keep herself slim that i recalled the blubber i wear over my skeleton.

self-discipline please, you sloth of a jo.


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27.5.06

oh wow.
this describes me the way i feel.

You Are 65% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're very addicted to love.
But you're not really getting the deep love you seek.
Short lived, dramatic relationships are more your style.
Let go of needing someone, and you may find someone you actually want.


Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative.
You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential.
Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them.
As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.


im not that sociable, see?

Your Extroversion Profile:
Assertiveness: Very High
Cheerfulness: Very High
Activity Level: High
Excitement Seeking: High
Friendliness: High
Sociability: Medium


24.5.06

im alive again!

after sleepless nights tossing in the bed,
books and doses of jamie oliver,
ive got my comp back.
and of course the hero's the same one again. =)
i love him.

watched da vinci code today,
and unlike my prev movie review shits,
today's review is cowstool.
total cowstool.
cos i felt the urge to pee real bad
after halfway thru.

and im too overwhelmed by the sudden technology in my life.

wait a minute..
is anyone still readin? =)


22.5.06

a lil' low on tolerance level

was tellin fir n ayda the other day
that ive been running low on tolerance level.
and..i cant be bothered to pretend much.
even though after a bit of training from j n e,
i dont suck at it much anymore.

a conversation that illustrates my point.

after hearing some negative grumbling n a bit of a confession,
me: what's wrong with you? on depressants or what?
him: no im not on anything, not even alcohol. i think my fren is though.
me: uh. thats not what i meant. get over it already. im turning in.
him: dont worry, ive managed to curb my feelings for you.

and i didnt even bother to reply.
omg help.

the epitome of communication breakdown.
wait. not even.
two pple of different wavelengths pretending to talk to each other.
thats it.


11.5.06

um.

someone ask me why.
why its been so long since i got my freedom
yet i havent been online much
i havent changed my blog skin
i havent switched to livejournal
i havent started sleeping in the wee hours of the morning.

MY COMPUTER'S DOWN.
it cant be on-ed.
that's the problem.
and i dont know why i cant solve such a simple problem.

and i feel lazy.
i dont want to learn puerto rico.
so im typing away at zs's computer
while the rest of the beloved crowd around the bed.
to play the game la.

and when i finally get to use the internet,
nothing seems to be fun leh.

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now for the real updates.
ive had SOOOO MUCH FUN!

been hanging out with kris
during the exams.
celebrated her birthday at the red club
and i honestly felt it.
im straight.
from, i quote feng,
the top of my scalp to the tip of my toes.
it was a monks remake
and of course i saw the unwanted people.
but most of the time,
i just sipped at the drinks i ordered at the bar,
smsing for help.
but it was monksy.
madmonksy.

had a ball of a time at thumpers with kimmy n lynn.
danced til i rained.
and if u club with me u know how little i usually dance.

did supper with eleine fir issy audrey n yirang.
oh man. it was just coffee.
or iced water actually.
and it was sweet.
im lookin forward to high tea.

came out with yz aud na n zs.
damn nice catching up.
n the programmers.
=) theyre the pride of my life.
the best thing i ever got.

and when i contrast that with this particular friendship,
i um. feel fake.
fir knows how i feel. help.
ive become so good at it i feel like that person.

i need to jog.

well..im having fun!!


4.5.06

love is in the air

early mornin n im soaked in bliss.
happiness felt for my friends!!

awwww.
my monkey of a friend in kl now
and jeza&ellen!!
saw ellen's photo with jeza on fridae
n read her diary thingy.
how schweet la! =)
and the monkey of a fren..
im sooo happy for your simple love.
my next relationship will be simple n fun too!

the world's in love!
i love this feeling.


3.5.06

fun!



maybe it was the alcohol
maybe it was the music
maybe it was who was there
or maybe,
um, well, just a possibility,
it might have been the company =)

let's do it again!

even though we're old and useless
and spent more time at supper than in the club.
and someone opened a bottle of vodka outside 7e
but didnt drink a sip.
and i refused to finish my free housepour.
we are old.



the tide is high but im holdin' on..
im gonna be your number one.
im not the kinda girl
who gives up just like that..
oh no!



::edit::
and by order of the empress herself
ive updated yan's blog link!