we all change.

we all change -- and i do, too.
well. i hope i do.

since it's hard for me to update, i see no point in maintaining that blogskin. and i think this suits me just fine. i feel like a blank piece of paper right now. i have so much to offer, yet i have so much to learn. the simplest form expresses the most. and in so many ways this blogskin represents me right now.

been thinking alot, been quieting myself alot. so many things are debatable. so many things are contro. but i quote this new-found friend "是又怎样？说了有分别吗？" he said, as the third person to me, "if something needs to be screwed up, let it be."

al's a candle and bbear the matchstick. im like a lighter.. need some push to light up n provide energy -- and when the wind comes i need a hand to shield me. im trying to stand alone, i am. but im about to collapse.

i try to offer a smile to everyone. but ive stopped smiling at myself in the mirror every morning. tell me why.