a mixture of feelings.

i was actually sad when i filled in the knock-off time for the last session i met The Happy Puppetry Company. not because i'm officially jobless, but i just felt lost. we hung out so much everyday for so many days in a row, having all our meals together, gossiping, grumbling, toilet-ing even.. and just suddenly i have to make do without them.

the airport was the same when we reached to send them off. nothing looked different. except them. from strangers to acquaintances to friends. from the second i was told to recognise them by myself and i identified them correctly, went up to say hi and slowly broke the ice, it was time to send them off already. corny as it might sound, it really felt like yesterday i received them. and seconds ago when i sent them off.

小柯，小世，thanks for all the joy you've brought me over the past few days. im sure you've read what i wrote in the postcards!

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on another note, it's cool that even after analysing te situation im still able to live so simply. two more weeks it shall be.

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i felt like a good friend. =) not super close that i know all her friends, but good enough to be able to mingle fine between both groups and to help out. and be there for her, not for the sake of being there.

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im writing in chunks. so incoherent.

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well since jeza darling introed me to this chinese input website, im gonna type some chinese!

here goes.

回顾昨日爱亦深
心酸绕魂钻人泪
期盼明天情愈稠
美忆渗思给众乐

translation:
remembering the love of yesterday
the pains that recur bring tears.
hoping the friendship of tomorrow
the sweet memories that form will make us smile.

p/s:
written with an innocent heart
that sought to wrap up things nicely.
but i guess like ive said before,
times pass and people change.
things unravel themselves
and capture people unawares.

though it doesnt reflect the truth now
i guess i did write it before.
mention worthy.

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on a happier note, i cant be more contented with my present life.

it was a trip to the zoo with po after so many months of no zoo. or years. pics will only be up after old po gets the time to upload. no hurry though. and im not saying this because po's good with photoshop and can make me look horrendous before she sends the pictures over. anw my lions were feelin lazy so there werent good shots of them but we took tonnes of her white tigers.

then it was fir n ayda time!! after how long huh. but it was gooood. some stuff you're in danger of leakin leaks. and i dont have to safeguard certain stuff. n we talked of some people who intentionally leak stuff, to gain attention. sad case eh?

javen's birthday at sakae sushi! nice food great company. i really really have the sweetest friends i hope i deserve them. lin yen to pr javen, von to settle cake, zs n na to buy gifts. n when i felt so guilty i did nothing zs went "we know u were busy with arts fest." =)) where on earth do u find such friends?? it wasnt as if the rest were all free. i'll try to be a better friend! pics will be up after yen uploads too.

and really. a sunflower made my day. =) the friends i have make me smile every minute every second everyday.