because i don't know what happens when you're not by my side.

i was shocked when i received bro's text. i was hoping he used the wrong word. that "committed" should be "attempted". i read it, and reread it. i'm sorry i didnt call. i suck at endings.

when cava left, i didnt even go to her wake. and it still bothers me. i suck at endings.

since cava's demise, ive started making it a point never to quarrel and let the other party leave my sight before we make up. at least for my family.

but with another death of someone so young, i cant help but see clearer again. that every single second we have with one another has been blessed, is a gift. and however tempting it is to vent all frustration on people closest to my heart, they dont deserve it.

and like the lyrics of one of the songs bro posted, who doesnt want to score 100? i'm making a mental note to never be mad at those children again. whether being mad at them works or not.