issues.

it's time to talk abta issues.
we'll start from the mildest.

issue 1. mrt etiquette

if u take the mrt,
u might have observed this before
and shook ur head so many times
that u suffered from a neckache the next day.
this morning,
i saw a school boy around 10years old
cutting the queue in front of the mrt door
pretending to see some niao poster.
it didnt really matter to me,
cos i was only going to take the train for one stop.
but when the train was coming to a halt,
the queue crinched.
pple almost had their faces pressed against the door
(from the inside, of cos)
but fortunately,
since it was Outram Park,
a fairly big number of passengers tried to alight.
the appalling thing came -
the boy squeezed his way thru the people
who were trying to come out.
it was highly disturbing.
he is only a primary school boy.
what will happen to him?
will he grow up with such values?
or will he change?

a few hours ago
when i was coming home around 9 plus pm,
i sat comfortably on the corner seat
of a whole row of EMPTY seats.
across me,
another guy sat in the other corner
of another whole row of EMPTY seats.
the door of the cabin opened at the next stop,
and this lady, about 3rd to enter the cabin,
ran in.
and i really mean run.
not dash, but run.
run at the fastest speed u can
without having to make an E break to avoid the pole.
i looked up.
she spoke with an accent.
the accent that belonged to people
who have booming voices,
and whose whispers = our conversation volume.
get the drift?
anyway.
it was utterly disgusting.
cos there were EMPTY seats!!
and she had to RUN.
well, there were ppl behind her,
but she RAN.
i m so not exaggerating this time round.

issue 2. simplicity vs complexity

ive been so tired of thinking,
and ive tried, and am currently trying,
to not think too much.
take things at their surface level.
but it's just so hard.
wad do u do
when uve done something
and really made an effort to do it
and one word from someone -
and the most unexpected someone -
kills ur efforts?
wad if u talk to this someone so much
that u never thought she'd say things behind u
but the fact is she does?
im trying so hard not to think so
but she does.
and if i were to take it simply
that she did it,
that'd be it.
but im not thinkin so,
i gotta think in the complex manner
that she has her reasons
and things arent the way i think them
even though everything points so.

issue 3. rights

basic rights -
to close a bedroom door;
to open ur letter w/o eyes on it;
to write a diary w/o it being read;
to say what u wan w/o getting slapped.
it's improving,
but im suffocating.

issue 4. bias

against the issue or against the man?
sometimes we can try really hard
but when a bias is present
it's really difficult.
this has been proven in world issues
and i shall not elaborate further.
but small issues like the most basic form of bias
can make such a big difference.
but one thing's for sure -
people give to people.
(too lazy to quote the author)

there are lots more issues on my mind
right this minute.
but im losing it -
cant articulate them properly.

my life's been busy
but not fulfilling.
i feel like a piece of crap,
wasting oxygen with every breath i take.