people.

had beanie over for saturday night,
chao muggers? think again.
sleepyhead jo slept from 11-1am.
ok fine 11-3am.
(i wanted to wake up one ok,
i was thinking "eh how come my 15mins so long"
and before i realised it was 3am le.)
its not my fault beanie scared i hit her right.

and it was heart-to-heart talk from 3am-8am!
again, there were so many things fighting for the attention of me,
the lion queen. *grin
the stuff that i never came to terms with,
the issues i have difficulties coming to terms with,
the pride that i possess.
sometimes, i put it aside.
but i remb me being put down.
after i gave it all up.
alot of incidents that ive forgotten,
but one thats still bothering me.

really,
gale's words never left me:
"trust noone until they earn it."
but i give it til pple fail me.
then i forget abt it n give again.
im not a giving person,
im just a forgetful person.
maybe gale's right.
i should learn to not trust.
i dont have to doubt,
i just have to listen n forget.
maybe it wont prove so difficult a thing
for this goldfish here to accomplish.

"an eye for an eye makes the world go blind"
this line ive never forgotten from my play.
really, this is something i believe in.
id start feeling guilty when i take a hit back.
yet recently,
ive been very displeased with this person
and im almost feeding her the rotten banana she fed me.
it bothered me.
but yesterday it struck me.
a talk with reilly and ravin.
"dispense positive energy and receive positive energy."
maybe physics' right.
energy is never lost.
it just changes forms.
the world will have more happiness to go around
if you stop sulking all day.

so start smiling now =)