update

havent been blogging for sometime.
i've been unable to remember wad i wanna talk about,
so that's the reason for the lack of posts.

ive been analysing my life like i do a play
ever since i was small.
like "wad this person does means this", and
"wad i do might give the impression of that", etc.
wad a stressful life i lead.
but oh well,
when i stepped into the world of deeper analysis,
my life just got more stressful.

one thing about me,
i'm a dependent.
i thrive on company.

i don't like my friends to get angry at me,
i wish i could go "oh fuck care", but i cant.
i don't like it when i do something
that cause people to get angry at me.
and incidentally,
i was waiting behind this girl with these words on her tshirt
"i can't tell u the formula for success,
but it can tell u the formula for failure-
try to please everyone."
i always told myself i don't try to please people,
i'm just being me,
doing wad i like,
and trying not to do wad i dont like.
but it scares me
when i realise how much it affects me,
my self-esteem and my warped up mind
when some stuff happens.

my life is planned..
every coincidence has a significance
and i meet the most appropriate quotes
during the most uncanny times.
or maybe i'm jsut reading my signs
like how some people read the bible.