there are so many things that i wanna do
but so little time n so little energy.

i wanna earn loads of money
i wanna give my cousins a better life.
i wanna give them wad they need and want
i wanna help them grow up well.
i wanna make them feel loved
i wanna teach them everything i know
i wanna help my aunt out with the house
and give her a little happiness.

i wanna help my mum out
let her enjoy life
n give her more money
i wanna help my bro out
pay my own school fees
pay for the house payment
pay for the bills.

why am i only seeking my own fulfilment?
why am i the selfish girl i am?
why do i seek only things i wan?
when i could spend the time on my family
instead of trying to feel life on my own.
my family does not deserve this.
it does not deserve a girl who cares for herself only.
it does not deserve a girl who comes home tired,
from the activities that satisfy her selfish needs.

hearing wad my aunt told me
seeing wad happens in her house
leaves me feeling useless.